Monday, May 25, 2009

Back to Civilization!

Wow, what a week!

I left last Monday for a 3-day work trip to Spokane. I worked mucho overtime Mon-Wed, Thursday I only worked 6 hours and Friday I only worked 2.5!!

I had my baseline ultrasound Friday morning and got my prescription for Femara, and then it was off to go camping. Camping was actually better than I thought. I hadn't been "real" camping in a long long long time. We'll we were in a state park and there were showers and flushing toilets, but still... We went and played at a river one day, vegged another day and went hiking around looking for water falls another day. We had hoped to hike up to some lava caves, but unfortunately, the caves were closed. I was a really good trip, but man I'm glad to be back home.

Anyway, it was also a big week for me because I spent the WHOLE WEEK around pregnant women and children! I survived, unscathed! Mon-Thursday was spent with a pregnant coworker and Fri-Mon was spent with my pregnant friend. There were also 4 kids under the age of 10 camping with us. I can't tell you how many heart attacks I thought I was going to have with the 3 year old that was there. I guess I'm uber paranoid, but I gasped I don't know how many times. I hope I'm not a super paranoid parent. I don't think my heart could handle it! :0)

I am really proud of myself on my attitude around the preggos and children. No hard feelings at all. I feel really bad because a couple of times now when someone has told me they were pregnant they had a hard time doing so knowing what I am going through and how I feel emotionally. The coworker told me on Monday that she was pregnant, I actually had no negative reaction at all. I am really happy for her! But she still felt bad and didn't know how to tell me.

I don't know what the change in attitude is all about. A small part of me thinks that I am waiving my white flag and just giving up on the idea that I will ever get knocked up. But mostly I think my time will come and getting all bummed out about it won't help anything. This is my attitude as of the last few weeks. Now if someone else announces their pregnancy...which I cant imagine who else in my world would be getting pregnant...I might react differently.

Today was my second day of pills - which, by the way, I figured out cost $45/day for 5 days. Thankfully, insurance covered most of it and the total for all the pills was only $25. I'll finish the pills Thursday and then a few days later start peeing on the ovulation sticks and go from there...

Here we go again...again....

Thursday, May 21, 2009

The evil me is gone for now :0)

So last night was bad. I was in a SUPER bad mood. Really angry at the world, pretty much.

Today is a better day. I called the doctor's office shortly after they opened and talked to Jeri - the better of the two receptionists. Long story short, I was able to get an appointment at 10:30 tomorrow!!

Now I am leaving work at about 10:15 (only a 2 1/2 hour day!!) going to my appointment and then getting home in time to be picked up for camping - woot woot!!

This period is one of my heavier ones. I'm really tired today. I did not want to work at all today, but that is also because it was beautiful outside and I had been out of the office for three days prior and I didn't feel like playing catch up. But now that I'm home I have the same "no motivation" feeling. I have my packing list made as well as my grocery list, but I don't wanna go! My friends are going to Wa.lmart and C.ostco to buy their groceries for their families, but since it's just me camping, I figured it be easier for me to just bring my own stuff instead of sharing theirs. Plus I can get exactly what I want. Not that I'm a picky eater, but I'm a little particular at what I want to eat. Okay enough about that.

I think my Hubby is disappointed that my appointment thing worked out. I told him if I couldn't get it changed I was going to stay home. Since I was gone for three days this week and now I'm going to be gone for three days this weekend, he's probably bored and tired of being left alone with our needy dogs.

Well, I need to get my keester off the couch and get some stuff done. It's almost 6:30 and I have to unpack from Spokane, repack for camping, go grocery shopping and clean up the house. Whew, I'm tired just thinking about it.

I hope you all have a great holiday weekend!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Seriously?!?! What the....???

I finally finished my 10 days of Provera on Saturday. Usually I start my period the day the most the following day...Well, of course it didn't work out that way. I started today. Wednesday. I have to go in for my 3-day ultrasound on SATURDAY!!!! Does the office realize I'm supposed to be leaving town at noon on Friday for a camping trip?!?!!? I asked about coming in Friday morning - but they're booked - of course. I'm so mad I want to scream!!! Of course I talked to the frickin' moron woman. I decided I'm calling back in the morning, asking to speak with Jeri, the competent one and begging her to squeeze me in. If that doesn't work I'm going to ask if I can go to another office to have the ultrasound done and have the results sent in. If that doesn't work, what choice do I have? I'll have to totally screw up my plans.

I realize they have to do this ultrasound before prescribing the Femara, but really? Bad timing. I'm supposed to be an hour and a half away camping starting Friday at noon and coming back Monday afternoon.

Now, instead of riding down with friends I'll have to drive myself. Now, instead of riding with friends and driving myself, I'll also have to pay $10 a day (times three days) to park my "extra" car at the campsite. Now that I have to drive myself and pay extra, I'll miss at least a whole day of camping and exploring. Not to mention there'd be no point in leaving work early on Friday, which really really sucks.

Is it worth it? Do I pay $80 for an ultrasound, $30 to park my dang car, probably at least $20 for gas, plus food and whatever activities we decide to do? I guess I'll have to see what they can do for me tomorrow morning. Right now I'm thinking of bagging the whole trip. Damn.

Since I'm ranting...I just got back from a work event in Spokane. It is about a 5 hour drive from Olympia. On our way back we stopped at a resort we are using in September to check it out. We had lunch at the resort. I ordered Lobster Mac & Cheese. They bring out the meal and there is a big ol' black hair in it. I complained right away. They bring me a new one and I'm almost finished with it when I crunch down on on a lobster shell - I about broke a tooth. Needless to say we didn't pay for our meal and we got dessert.

After that is when I talked to the doctor's office (I'll add here that I was driving this whole time - which is exhausting). After talking with them and getting really pissed about the whole situation we hit 5 o'clock traffic. AAAAAHHHHH!!!! Wham! I get slammed with a headache.

We finally get to the office and unload our stuff, I get in my car and come home. I walk in the house and it is a disaster. Granted it was not that clean when I left, but it is worse now. While I was gone one of our dogs got poop stuck in his paws, so Hubby threw him in the tub to clean him off. I walk into the bathroom and the shower curtain is not closed (HUGE pet peeve!), my WHITE towel I use when I get out of the shower is wadded up on the floor. The toilet paper is sitting on the side of the tub (instead of the obvious roller). He didn't even frickin' work on Monday ! I don't expect the house to be spotless when I get home, but at least not worse. There were also lights left on and blinds closed with I got home - also pet peeves! Lastly, my favorite oven mit was sitting on top of a plate that was covered in syrup. AAAHHH!!!

Okay, I'm done bitching. I wish I could say I feel better, but I really don't. Maybe I should take some Advil and walk the dogs or something.

Two good things though...someone told me on Friday that she was pregnant and I didn't get all jealous and depressed so that is totally awesome. And since we worked so hard at this event this week my boss said I could come in at 10am tomorrow - yay!

On that note, I'm signing off.

Friday, May 15, 2009

I'm still here

I don't have anything to report, that's why I've been so quiet. Tomorrow is the last of my 10-day Provera. I'm hoping to start my period on like Tuesday...but It'll probably be Sunday or Monday. I'm going to be out of town for work Mon-Wed next week. I just hope being out of town doesn't mess up the beginning of my cycle.

Well, that's all folks. I'll check back in when AF shows her ugly mug!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009 we go again!

Go the call from Dr. M. Progestrone test showed no ovulation this month (big shocker there!), so he's calling my prescription in to the pharmacy and I'll start popping pills tomorrow.

If the timing works out, I will be starting my period just as I'm going to Spokane for a two-day work event. Nice.

To be continued...

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

not much to update

Yes, it's true, my period was in fact my period and I am not mysteriously pregnant. Go figure. :0)

I went into Dr. M's office yesterday and had my blood drawn for a progesterone test. I thought I would have heard from him yesterday, but I didn't. So hopefully he'll call today. Depending on the results he'll either think I'm ovulating this month or he'll prescribe Provera to induce Auntie F.

Oh and a side note: Things do happen for a reason.

I was really disappointed to be skipping this cycle, but turns out it's a good thing I did. Hubby ended up getting really sick with an infection over the weekend. That was about the time when we would have done our IUI. With him that sick it probably would have effected his sperm quality. He's on mega doses of antibiotics and is already starting to feel better. Hopefully it will be all gone and he'll be completely recovered for next cycle.

That's all folks! I'll let you know when there is something to report! :0)