I'm movin' on

Well, it could still happen this month. Maybe...

So, I headed north again this morning in the dark, the rain and the muck. I wasn't late this morning even though the traffic a was a little worse. I was called back about 5 mins early too! But that was the end of my happy day. I don't know where that black cat came from, but it must have crossed me in the hallway when I was walking back to the u/s room. I didn't even see it.

Anywho, the tech measured my lining. I think it was 6mm and it should be 8mm or something like that. Then after searching and searching she found a follicle to measure on the right side...a whoppin' 9mm or something...then it was the left side...searching...searching...oh there's one...hmm...it's about 12mm. Nice. It grew two whole millimeters in 3 days (average is 2mm/day). I got dressed and the nurse came in. She wants me to come back on Sunday. What the &^$%#? Even I know that at a good rate I won't be at 18mm by then. Dumb a**. I said, no, that's not going to work. And she said "ya, I guess I err on the side of caution. I'd hate for you to miss it" I felt like saying "ya, well your caution" costs me big time!!" but I didn't. She said how about Monday. I said fine.

I went to the front desk to hand over my cash and I told the receptionist I would have to call to make my appointment. That was a lie. I am not making another appointment. I am so done with that money grubbin' place. I figure, hey, I could still ovulate sometime this cycle. I did last month with no clomid. If hubby and I keep "busy" for a couple of weeks, it could happen???

Besides, I have my new doctor consulation on Tuesday. He is about 10 mins away from my office. Now that sounds better. Plus, a coworker was knocked up by him about 13 years ago via IVF.

So, yes, I am bummed that this cycle didn't work out how I planned, but hell, what has in this process??? I would have never thought I'd would still be dealing with this a year after seeing a "specialist".

Well, Happy Halloween everyone! I will be home hiding in the back of my house with the lights low tonight. Or who knows, maybe I'll venture out and hang out with my parents. I can't hang with friends tonight since they all have kids and are busy doing there own thing. Sad.

Don't worry about me though. Suprisingly, I did not shed a tear on my drive back this morning. I hardly even choked up. It is time to move on to bigger and better things.