I realized today, that it hasn’t even been a week or close to a week since I ovulated. What a disappointment. I have so many more days to wait before I take a test.
For some reason today, I am feeling this incredible calm. I don’t know what it is, but I feel like if I am preggers then that is FANTASTIC, but if I’m not, it’s okay. I can’t believe I just said it would be okay. I mean “okay” not like it’s not big deal if I’m not, but I mean I’ll be okay…meaning I’ll survive if I’m not. I don’t know if I am feeling this way because I’m actually getting more sleep lately and so I am not as tired and stressed or what. I think it also could be that I have spent the last few days reading blogs about other PCOSers who have successfully gotten pregnant and delivered. I guess that gives me peace of mind that it is possible for me.
I was laying in bed last night and I was wondering what was going on in my guts. I had some mild ovarian cramping and then I just felt like things were going on down there. I am acutely aware of any aches, pains, shifts, etc that happens. I wonder if it a little embryo implanting or if it is my uterus preparing to slough off. Either way, I have to remind myself it is out of my control.
Wow, finally some progress with my attitude. Hopefully I don’t flop back to a crappy attitude tomorrow.
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