***warning: what you are about to read is nothing but my own pity party***
I have one of these at least once a month. It is typically within a few days of getting my period. Call it hormonal, or whatever, but it is raw and it hurts and it makes me angry and sad and frustrated and hopeless all at the same time.
I have friends and family who love me and are supportive of me...but I feel so alone during this time. I have no one to talk to.
You know those lame commercials about depression and how it hurts all sorts of things. Well it is the truth. It hurts relationships, feelings, it literally makes my heart hurt.
I hate feeling this way. I sob all of a sudden just because I saw a damn commercial or a show with a baby in it. I am watching a movie and a little bit ago they showed a woman getting an ultrasound and she got to see the heartbeat for the first time. I lost it and I haven't gotten a grip since.
Okay, I'm sorry for the rant...
1 comment:
Thank you for sharing your story. I have known I have PCOS for 9 years. I was on birth control for a total of 4 of those years. I am not currently trying to get pregnant but we are not not NOT trying either. 2 months ago I unexpectedly got my period while on the fly and had to make a pit stop at a walmart for tampons. While in the bathroom stall i heard a mom playing with her baby, and the baby was cooing and giggling and doing what babies do best. I broke down and balled in that stall. Angry and frustrated and bitter and sad and feeling sorry for myself. I look forward to reading the rest of your story...and heads up, lol, may leave many comments or ask many questions. Congrats on your beautiful girls, a long journey well worth it, I am sure :)
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